so..

got my license renewed today, kinda wish i'd redone my photo but whatever right? went grocery shopping, got gas $61!!! dude that shit has got to come down... and saw the shrink...

i'm still kinda reeling kinda from the conversation with mom last night, told him about it and well i kinda think i'll go ahead and call, his comment was along the lines of maybe this just makes you realize there is something more going on and its not just you... something like that.. and i guess kinda but i dont know its somewhat more acceptable for me personally to want to believe that its like all just in my head and there isnt anything like actually wrong... know what i mean, and despite the mountain of evidence to the contrary... and i dont know why medication is such a touchy subject for me really, i mean i suppose im better on it as so far that i'm not quite as apt to go off myself or get to that point ... i guess its all relative huh... in more ways than one now ...

and i told mom that i'd call for a psychiatrist appt by my birthday... so i have 5 days to do so... 4 because tomorrow is sunday really... we shall see


update 10:07 just started pouring, love the sound of the rain in spring/summer