ponderings

okay first off before i ponder wtf is up with IE, its been a freaking bitch all week! roar! now that thats off my chest...

driving home today i was thinking about random stuff as is my habit when in traffic and i was considering the pros and cons of extended family ... specifically the fact that i personally feel like i'm shafted in the parental support area as compared to the steps and of course the baby of the family, my sister but thats to be expected, the youngest is always the spoiled... anyway i was pondering the competitive fact that is inherent the more children that are added to the pot, the parents aren't garnering income that is variable and increasing each time a new kid is added to the pot so i was wondering should those step siblings not have been would the result be the same? or would i be the recipient of some of that parental support?

and as full as the family is, if you count both sides there are 7 kids in total, i still basically feel like an only child and the outcast child at that... damn double whammy right? i'm the only child who lives apart from either side, and the only one who has never been the recipient of windfall type support, which i am defining as rent free living, you know aside from that under 18 age bracket and the brief college years... i should just stop comparing right, because i'm never going to be that recipient .. i was just pondering this fact