another item to ponder

okay the other thing discussed yesterday is my weight, and in the course of the discussion the conclusion was arrived at that one of the reasons i'm just not motivated to lose any right now is i'm okay with it, frankly i just dont care right now, but the interesting tidbit is that he thinks if i was more insecure about myself i'd lose weight, and frankly being less secure with myself i'm a whole helluva lot more unstable so its weird... i'd like to lose weight but eh, its like its a nice to have but not a real necessity

also that i had this idea that i'd do the weightloss thing again and frankly i did like for a day or two and its frankly easier to let the cafeteria people serve me my usual than for me to correct them to the better choices... which i can concede is i will agree likely a function of the fact that i'm isolated, and unsocial for the most part... but interesting nonetheless