Sunday Morning

You know, yes the "you" again... I'd been thinking this is set up as an emotional repository and my random goal to write something every day turned it back into more of a journal I think... and I dont know but I almost think it still is... or something like, I wonder if my unusual mood lately means something unlocked again... that chink got bigger... like I feel... that sounds pretty strange I"m sure but its like I think I'm starting again... and perhaps thats why my mood's been kind of all over the place lately... i was up for so long, longer than usual or in a great long while... and maybe I'm just feeling what a "normal" person would who doesnt interact with any actual humans... like i'd said being alone and cut off is hard.. and it is, but it was doable... i'm thinking at the moment it may not be as doable anymore...

In addition I enjoyed the living vicarously or attending vicarously through all the people who posted photos and videos from HVFF/Nocking Point party yesterday... and I commented a few times yesterday and people understood my references... that rarely ever happens in real life... seriously... i'm either talking too technical, obscure facts or any of my fandoms (it seems kind of weird to acknowledge that since I'm normally not, hmmm) and i get the proverbial "nod and smile" from the person I'm talking with who has no clue what I"m saying... that was nice... I'm kind of virtually diping my toe in the water of people... and I'm pretty sure if HVFF came anywhere close by Kim would actually go with me... if i asked.... but I do still think that if it were in pittsburgh and i had the opportunity to volunteer that'd get me there because I'd have an obligation... strange unusual but i think ultimately good things afoot in my person lately....

And I dont recall if i said this yesterday but the entire coverage of HVFF and SA & JB's interactions just make me want to go even more and I totally admire the fact that they all enjoy each other and I'm betting really like to go to work and hang out and play pretend all day with each other... not just them but the entire cast... and I'm thinking its the entire cast of all 3 shows, not just arrow.... its really nice to see