Winding down

2017 is now less than 2 hours away... you know I was thinking... it'd be nice to have people, but I think at this point its just not a skill I possess, whether that be grounded in my skepticism of people's true intentions, lack of trust or whatnot not sure its something I can do... which still again makes me wonder what the point of me is... like there is no real reason for me to get up in the morning, the reason I get up in the morning most days is simply to go to work... literally... 2 days left... then back to work... do you know what i dread about going back to work, people asking how my vacation was and what did i do... typical normal questions I know but nothing and nothing arent the answers people are looking to get...