another holiday weekend

I was so done with everyone/thing on Friday... Nicolas and I ate lunch outside so that was nice... got me out of my irritation... and this weekend has just not been good... for a variety of reasons...I'm still feeling bleh and like I'd rather not anything... and Erica's having issues since Ryder's been in the NICU since he was born, he's got SVT (which considering our family history seems like it was bound to happen to someone) and he failed his hearing test, of which I'm not sure what that means for an infant, like is it like me since I'm pretty sure if i'd never cheated on hearing tests all through school I'd probably have failed long before 24 after a double ear infection.. it also still makes me question if i should go down... bit it also makes me feel shitty for feeling so shitty lately... I mean Erica, I'm not so sure she could deal with any more crazy right now, and i'm just walking crazy... so...

onto other things... i've been thinking about getting my hands/eczema looked at... its pretty bad this summer... more than usual, but then i think why... then it itches, and i procrastinate and its a vicious circle of procrastination, itchiness, annoyance and other things....