fucking forgot a title when i published originally

You know, I am aware that not talking at group is basically tantamount to lying but as long as I can keep it together it doesn't matter what I'm thinking right?

But this work thing is totally stressing me out, i was just told that they want to do training in Tijuana... which I said would be hard since I don't have a passport... and I was just asked to find out how long that'd take... why the fuck do i need to go to Tijuana.. why cant the oh 2 people from that office come to the US and meet with the 30 or so US employees that makes no fucking sense... I'm not sure I want to... really my inclination is to just quit... and maybe just quit all together... like i know I'm maybe spiraling a bit but i liked to chalk last weekend up to my period but i know that's not totally the truth.. but it would be nice if it were... and i know that the whole RealID thing will make it so I'll need a passport since PA isn't switching to RealID til next year and my license doesn't renew for a few years after that and they're charging to renew with the updated licenses which is complete bullshit..

you know work was a good distraction, had been, and now this reorg stuff and this oh you need to go to TJ stuff just isn't cutting it to distract me from my brain and its not nice.. not nice at all... like right now i really want to leave and go crawl under the covers and hide the rest of the day... seriously...

also I'm in a meeting right now and trying to write this to and I'm irritated that they just asked me a question... and i just want to yell which is why I'm writing this... they are now asking more i need to pay attention but i don't want to... i want to go hide