Really?

So the leak I had last year in the garage and fixed has decided today is a good day to start leaking again... WTF? c'mon

Ok I know I care not about my house or myself but c'mon... it just makes me remember that there is really no reason for my existence its just one of those things... you know how I talked about little goals those are the things keeping me going... i just sometimes I'd rather not... its apparent on weekends like this, holidays how little people care about me... mom called, video again, she may be obsessed with video calls, I dont get it... there are days where I think I could disconnect and nobody would notice or contact me or anything... sure mom may worry but thats it.. and thats kind of her job right, she's my mom... sigh.....

Also this is my only place to vent, mom follows me on social media.. so I cant just vent even innocuously, I censor myself so not to worry anyone... yup.. and its not like I'm doing poorly, I'm not, I just I have no outlet for frustration... I kind of wish I did... I have group but its not really for frustration... can't/won't with Aubrey, she's doing well got friends, activites, kids etc.... so, i'm here... and its clear when there's a long weekend I post....