Have you Ever?

Have you ever had a day where you're pretty depressed, apathetic and just blah and your eyes feel like you've been crying but haven't shed a tear?

3 hrs later...

Long weekends knock me down... especially those where I have literally not interacted with another human being since Friday morning, with the exception of the cashier saturday, which I don't count...

I love Stephen's quote about letting people help you... it really resonates with me especially the dont mutter yeah after everything they say, just listen.... but I don't know how to ask people for help... its still back to the I don't want to impart my crap onto anyone else, its not their responsibility, *I'm* not their responsibility.... Its MY crap and I'm my own responsibility.... there is really just no other way, especially since I barely (more honestly don't really) trust people.... that's something that is broken and while when I think about it it'd be nice to fix, the reality isn't the same. I don't want pity, I don't want people to look at me more weirdly than they already do.... I do really just want to fade away...