a plan

its nice to have a plan... saw my old original shrink today, i just barely kept it in check without going into hysterics... but there is a plan, back on meds, appts 3x per week for now, and i'm to call should i be close to doing anything suicidal... i'm not supposed to care about the team at work just me... which i know is so not my strong suit, but i really dont have an alternative at the moment, the current state i'm in is not condusive to anything...at least i'm not being committed so no stress about that because that too was stressing me out, that possiblity, i'm not totally in denial about how bad i've been i know.. here's to hoping