sherlock lives

there are a bunch of no shit sherlock depression screenings online, i mean really, oh you clicked that you've had thoughts of suicide you call 911, and oh your depressed you should seek help... bleh

i cant fall back asleep i took a nap and i cant fall back asleep and i have to be working at 7 for the release

so i was online looking to see if there was anything relevant that i could take and maybe print and take with me but there really isnt its all lame, i mean plus there is huge risk involved in being 100% truthful with someone with whom i've never met. i'm afraid that if i do i'm getting a 3 day stay at my local psych ward, and if i do it'll just be like last time anyway, sleep mope around and get discharged... which the last time the psychiatrist whom i did not speak to because he tried to wake my ass up to talk at the crack of dawn told my parents i was just an angsty 19yo... so there was nothing really wrong that he could do anything about.. yep gotta love the mental health system

my inclination and instinct is to always be cordial and truthful but only to the point that its relevant but not to the point that i'd be in danger of being committed, but you know thats really not true either, i was in near hysterics in july when i went and nope... so what am i worried about anyway right?

plus now since my appt isnt until the 28th i have a whole 2 weeks to mull over and think about it all... not my idea of a good time