what is going on?

ok so let me tell you, came home from work on friday, dog puke in the hallway... ok no biggie, went about my evening, then went up to bed, bed is stripped and there is dog puke all over the mattress.. so i'm staying in the livingroom, i just dont have the ambition or wearwithall to fix anything, the puke was dry smelly and what do i do, i ignore it... and i keep ignoring everything, nothing really matters ... no meds this weekend just because i've been in the livingroom and meds are upstairs.. i had like plans this weekend and i wake up this morning in time to do things and it freaking snowed, it was supposed to rain and maybe a dusting but no like a half inch of ssnow, and thats not much but it made me not want to do a damn thing today, so i didnt... now i'm living in the livingroom, feeling miserable as always on the weekends... its getting somewhat harder to just keep going... pretending everything is great when it isnt, and i'm not even pretending this are great they arent and they just well they are, pretending things are more normal than they are i guess is what it is.. and its not.. and i can take a week off and wouldnt get a call or anything, i dont even think my 'work friend(s)' would be those friends if i didnt work with them daily... if i didnt i'd just be another person in the building... i dont know.. its what it always is right and its not going to change because i dont have the energy to change it..