thinking..

so we had pizza today at work, there is a picture of me... i'm gianormous now... ugh..

also i have my meds downstairs, havnt actually taken them yet...

i just dont know.. man i wish i was just depressed and not "okay" not good but just okay... just okay is so... whats the word i'm looking for... its so mediocre but thats not quite it either.. its okay in the sense that yeah i'm generally fine but there are those moments that i still ask myself what the fuck are you still around for? ya know?