past, present, future?

shrinker day today... we talked, i listened, he's right but i dont know.. i do spend alot of time "in the past" it serves no purpose other than to occupy my time which i have no other use for at the moment...

unfortunatly as much as i talk about change and wants etc i still have no inate drive to do anything... maybe the meds will help? maybe i should start actually talking about how i feel and think? i dont know when i do that i'm like nearing the end of my rope but i'm not there at the moment i'm hanging by the rope but i'm not at the end right now.. hanging like i dunno middle, center i suppose but not quite supported by my feet...

also LOST is very past present future lately... i'd be nice to have some kind of crystal ball to the past events if only to observe and potentially learn something from watching you didnt learn from being in the moment, also i dont know what i'm saying nevermind... doc jensen has a great article on tonights episode though