crap breaks

okay so, last night i tried to sleep with just the white noise but my brain wanted to run away about the heater/fan situation... which i totally need to rectify if i'm to survive the winter and have heat... i've been playing the book of mythicality at night to fall asleep because its distracting enough that my brain doesnt run away, i've read and listened to the book so i dont feel like i'm missing anything to fall asleep and the guys voices are soothing, more rhett's than links but they work

today i've been in a funk, plus my hearing aid broke this morning, i'm hoping its just the receiver but fuck its out of warranty and those things are pricey; its not that i dont have the money for it but thats besides the point.. plus they arent covered by insurance because why would they be that'd be too useful... got an appt tomorrow to see if its just that otherwise goddamn... plus the tinnitus that i've now had all day has been super fucking annoying, along with people being super fucking annoying and i had it, i'm out i'm fucking exasperated with the day...

went to group... next week is the last group.. margaret is pausing group for the winter, which i get i'm not keen on driving up there in winter weather every week at night so thats fine but that also means i gotta switch back to individual and group > individual... so i'm not 100% sure how i feel about any of that, particularly because i havent been great... i've been okay insofar that i'm functional but i'm not great, we'll see how this goes

got home, watched that new show a million little things... i'm not sure about it, its not bad, its not exceptional, its good i like the cast... but i'm not sold just yet

listened to an old rhettandlinkast and it entertains me, i have that entire library to go through which is nice, since i've gone through i think all the youtube so far, i also have some earbiscuits left that i haven't listened to yet... i also hadnt seen the 'viewing party' from s11/12 so watched that tonight, had some really great episodes in it, i find all the mayim bialik episodes hilarious and there was one in it

now i should be getting to bed... but i figured i should do an entry and maybe try to do one at least once a week since there wont be group... not that i utilize it to its fullest. which i dont, but i'm only comfortable with part of the group the new people i'm on the fence about, well really just one of them... i dont know what it is... whatever groups over next week.... oh and saw megan she had an appt before group started which was nice... but i'm still kinda in a mood we'll see when i see the audiologist tomorrow what kind of mood it will be....