summer

According to the forecast summer will arrive this week, with it in the 80s and one day maybe 90.... its weird I do feel less depressed this week but overall I'm still not sure what I'm going to do about my situation re: the central unit... fan blew 2-3 weeks ago and its been fine, i have fans... i remember what it was like growing up in a house with baseboard heat and no a/c... i just dont know beyond the summer what i'm going to to.... it's going to come up quick and there's all the crap downstairs to deal with still... i'm still compartmentalizing it but when i think about it i'm not sure what to do or how to fix it


I had a dream last weekend where someone came by and just without telling me started helping clean the house... i was overwhelmed, and though i cant remember who it was i feel like it was Gram... she used to decide that we had to clean my room when it got to the point where i didnt know where to start and she'd start with me and keep me going.... but i just dont know how on my own...