breathe :)

finally started talking the topic of what matt and i are and what our relationship is and what we would want it to be and funny thing happened we're both having the same thoughts, neither of us want to push the other away, but we need to talk about it and both have reservations about a relationship, i'm going to presume the same kinds of reasons, we're pretty alike and simliarly f'd in the head lol so it is awkward and weird and nice all at the same time lol... i feel so much better now that we've talked and we're going to continue the conversation in person and talk properly and i'm glad we have it out there on the table :)

i'm going to also say i have my reservations but i'm more and more open to the possibility of a real relationship the longer i see matt, but i'm totally totally happy taking it slow figuring it out and not getting weird

as long as we're honest with each other i think its possible scares the ever living fuck out of me too lol