vacation?

ok so aubrey emailed me and said she wants to come this weekend, short notice but okay... no wait not okay... ugh i have spiders in my house she cant stay no matter what she says about not caring about the state of my house that she'll care about.. and what would we do? i'm serious.. and like its not even getting either friday or tues off or whatever thats a problem.. its she's coming... she said she just wants to come see me but i dont know, like i dont think it'll be fun for her... it'll be disappointing... and like ugh i didnt take my meds like i told myself i would and now she's coming, well not offically but ... and like what about trinity? like i have no idea how she'd react to a guest, i dont have guests... and i caught and drown a carpenter ant, lord! wtf... and now since im itchy... not from any cause just seeing the ant crawling on the couch has made me itchy.. ugh... looked up hotels cheapest one is with the military discount, i think she'd get that but i dunno, i'm pretty sure she's got a military spouse id... and if i get her a room, i mean what happens i dont know i ugh... plus i need to try to sleep, which maybe i'd be doing had i not gotten and replied to the email... ugh ugh ugh!