today I napped

Today wasn't really a great day.... I so dont want to deal with people and I"m not looking forward to this trip, but damnit I'm going... I'm not looking forward to having a week of for Thanksgiving and not going anywhere... because I cant do two trips back to back... its too much

The batteries in the cat feeder need to be changed or something, I just dont want to deal with any of it.. if it all came crashing down around me I'd hope that the biggest thingat the top took me down with it and out...

Anyway I came home feeling shitty and I took a nap... trinity even 'cuddled' with me.. sorta she stayed up on the couch and lay by my feet in Twix's spot.. he wasnt super happy but he just went to be king of the laundry pile so it wasnt so bad... I woke up less irritable then when I lay down, but I'm still not what you'd say is ok... and I just I dont want to do it anymore.. I just dont... like I really want to just quit and run away or something I'm terrible at adulting... mom asked what i want for christmas, and what i really want is just some help... non-judgemental help me out... but i dont either... i am still firmly in the i created this mess i should fix it camp but I have less and less motivation lately to do anything about it...