Con Weekend Ramblings

Vicarious SDCC that is... I cant thank the Nerd Machine for live streaming Nerd HQ enough... its been really excellent. You know I sit here this weekend and I think, a few things... one these are my people... I always knew that but admitting it is another thing because people I knew who like these things never liked me... so I never engaged... anyway enough about shit that happened over 20 years ago..

Like I like to read, I will like binge read, its a thing.. I think... anyway. One book that I remember and love from my childhood reading has always been Witch by Christopher Pike,without question. Its a story about a girl who's from a family of witches, her mother died when she was very young. She can see the past/future I feel like it was in a pond somewhere.. anyway that's not important to why I love the book. And I may totally be getting some of this wrong I read the book I swear to god must have been 25 maybe 27 years ago now... anyway when was it published? I'm gonna google.. brb ok so it was published in 1990 so I read it when it was new... because I loved Christopher Pike, I read a bunch of his books when I was a kid.. so 25/26 years ago lets say... where was I? ok... she's a witch, she can see the past/future but that's not her cool power (and the past future may have been another book I feel like I should re-read but I"m afraid to ruin the memory) her cool power was healing people... she could see their literal life line.... like a literal tether of life... I forget who the character was totally but it was a close friend of hers and he was sick... or he got hurt anyway he was dying... and she, intentionally put a crack pipe in her pocket, went to the hospital and traded his fading life line for her's dying in the process... I love that book... anyway why this story? Well at the Stephen Amell & Friends panel someone asked what everyone's favorite book from their childhood was, and he said Christopher Pike's Buy Me Deep.... also a good book but Witch is better, in my opinion... anyway it sealed the these are my people thing and also made me like Stephen even more... Nobody and I mean NOBODY ever knows what the hell I"m talking about if I answer that question or anything... its like they didn't read... or maybe not that book or any of them and SOMEONE mentioned it and knew and one of his books was their favorite too... i want to rewatch to see if anyone else knew what he was talking about I was shocked/astonished because seriously nobody knows... my sister, who likes to read now, didn't when we were kids and never read them.... nobody ever around to talk about the books with... I feel weird about this as well, because well I still don't know anyone else in my actual life who has any of these interests..... girl at work is a total Star Wars nerd and I like Star Wars I know more than the casual viewer but I'm not anywhere near her level... and she doesn't do much outside of that universe... there's another lady at work who didn't recognize SA in my con photo but says she watches Arrow.... we shall see... maybe... and while on the topic of work Lisa a co-worker from a prior project who lives in Scotland I spoke with chatted/IM'd on Friday and we had a brief catch up and I mentioned Barroman/HVFF to her and I knew she'd have to at least know who he was, and she did, since she's Scottish... it was nice... because even though she didn't know Arrow or much Who/Torchwood she knows his personality from general Barrowman is awesome and Scottish type stuff... so that was nice... I recognize I'm totally rambling on right now but I'm awake and hoping the Neuro will kick in...

So..... how do I find real in person people... that I'm not kind of afraid of... I'm totally weird.. get me in a contrived situation and I'm generally ok with small talk stuff... more or less... comfort is another thing that I need time to get to, so HVFF day 2 was better than day 1... if i was Day 2 and brought the poster for Stephen to sign I think I'd have said a few of the things I wanted to but alas, I did not... I wasn't so much nervous as I was not wanting to take time away from other people and just being shy... which I think is a funny thing to say about me, because if you know me, at work or are one of the few who know me personally I'm not shy if I know you... quite the opposite really... I'm complicated...

Also... I have about 8lbs to go before my generalized goal that if I hit I will pursue greater efforts ... which I'm kind of excited about... I wrote a while ago about the SA workout videos and how he looked like he was having fun in especially the parkour ones... fun is something I did used to have when i was in dance or at Gram's pool... so lets see what I can find that'd be fun now... not too sure about LA fitness but they have water aerobics which I thin would be a good primer for me to get back at it... I already have the mag bike and god I wish it had a more comfortable seat... I'd do it more often if that were the case... I was going to cannibalize the fly wheel bike's seat but i couldn't get it off... I could always order one.. anyway biking may be a good thing a little ways down the road, I do live right by the goddamn trail..

Anyway I'm going to bed now... my eyes are a little tired so I don't want to keep typing because my mind would totally keep going... goodnight