Weekends, alone

I spend nearly every weekend alone, every now and then its just almost too much and I wonder why.... but I have a vacation to do, people to meet... a niece arriving soon, but life alone... its lonely....

12am: I walked by the door, there was a breeze I really wish it were raining, sitting on the deck in the rain seems like it'd be an excellent idea right now.... i hope this passes before my vacation.... i really do