so i went to my 4th SPNNJ this weekend; and i barely went ... my day started off late i almost just called it off all together but got my shit together and arrived around 9pm on thursday... Friday i got registered, ended up with a silver ticket and did a manns cave and went to the trailer screening of exes which was fun... saturday i was just EXHAUSTED i literally slept all day i had no energy to get out of bed at all so i didnt and didnt go to SNS either... sunday had a headache... and some other issues and didnt feel better until like 10pm Sunday... so that was my weekend
like i physically didnt feel well and was exhausted but i wonder if that was actual sick or some weird manifestation of anxiety?
nobody noticed i wasnt there, i saw ellen and kara at breakfast at the hotel friday, sunday and today... its weird its also like i dont know if i fit anymore i was so exhausted but was it a manifestation of my lack of desire to go which happens a lot but it didnt not even a little... i wish it had i usually enjoy these..
