improbability

 the improbability of it all gave me a nagging too good to be true but i wanted to ignore that, i've come to the conclusion i dont think i can. and while it sucks, it was only online but for someone to tick off so many of my boxes was incredible if i'm being honest, but i cant do what he wants, i could try sure, but would it be fulfilling for me? it'd be a nice escape for sure so am i running again like i did 20 years ago maybe? does it matter? its only been a week better now than a year from now right?