I've been thinking of putting an entry in for a few weeks, but just hadn't. Stuff is still crazy, my broken ankle is pretty much back to normal, i feel the rogue bone chip occasionally if i step right, but eh. My sprained ankle however god fucking hell its fucked up. Actually my whole left leg has issues. My ankle is still sore across the top where the leg meets the foot, and i have lovely shooting like cramp pains up from the outside of my ankle.. Its manageable mostly with a heat wrap, i just couldn't keep taking aleve, it did its job while they were both out of commission but thats no longer the case so I'm gonna deal. My left hipish its not my hip its more like a glut or i dunno when i sit in the office chair lately it hurts when i get up til i move around a bit then its fine. dunno what the hell is up with that. Oh and my left foot does cramps occasionally which are super fun too. woo hoo.
In the midst of this I have binged and successfully caught up to Supernatural, a show that has been in my Netflix list since it was first available on Netflix. There was previously just never a good time to catch up then they kept going. Anyway quarantine afforded me the time needed. Which also I've allowed myself to watch panels on youtube since I'm caught up, i really hate spoilers. And its funny, the guys remind me of me and erica.... with Jensen being Erica and instead of saying "just nod and smile" he makes the best facial expressions and then digs into Jared... its so funny. I do find they're somewhat a mix of us both too, but the nod and smile kind of situation that happens is so me & erica its hilarious.
Had a call for Chuckie's 50th on Wednesday; and everyone was telling stories about how they're all itching to get back in the office or back to school or really just back to a job that looks like it used to. And they asked me and I'm like I'm WFH til at least spring, I could continue. And they were like really.... and i'm like yeah, not being around people works for me... they dropped it soon after but it was somewhat surprising they were surprised. I dunno, I mean I was kind of surprised at first because when this all started I weighed my options, like do I go out and just try to get infected because with my history it'd probably kill me... or do i just hermit up and stay in... well clearly I stayed in, the broken ankle and sprain kind of forced me to i don't know just relax sort of, because I couldn't go anywhere, anyway so. Its ok though I'm good being alone. It is stillweird too... I have the week of christmas off, that'll be the real test I think.... more than 3days in a row alone.... long weekends are no biggie anymore. So what the holiday will be alone I don't know. I just don't want to travel, if I'm committed to (and i think i am mostly) living through this pandemic I'm just gonna remain a hermit. Though it'd be nice to travel again, I just dont know. And I know now that I've caught up an SPN con would be great, but its a lot of people in close proximity and that idea was a problem with the first HVFF i went to and yeah I went back but now there's covid in the mix. Like I'd REALLY like to but I don't think i can justify the risk right now. Look at me being conservative with my well being.
There are other thought rabbit holes running about lately but it is 2:30 am my leg is sore because it cramped earlier and I should be getting to bed...
