holiday's

so i start back @ hmk tomorrow, and even though i managed to get the time off i now cannot go up to MA for christmas... cannot board the cat and the dog, the cat is driving me fucking insane and i cant put someone else through that not to mention he's not up to date on his shots and not exactly in the health to get them... and matt said he couldnt do it 2x a day is too much.. so i'm pretty much staying here alone once again, and i actually was starting to look forward to/want to go home why do i even bother?