CRASHING

Today is Sunday August 16th

im sorry ive been sooooo negligent in keeping this up.... its harder now... anyways my life sucks alot.... although on a good note im going back to school in 2 weeks yay! ...

two friends of mine deeply hurt me and have in all honesty and probablity destroyed my ability to ever trust again, which sucks i know, but its the only way i can keep myself and everyone else safe from my destruction.... i want to believe some things yet i dont because their just as bad as the pain inflicted upon me by them.... one or both wrote an intentionally nasty hurtful email to me, and using things from my past rubbing them in my face and basically shattering me... this was from two people i cared for very much and trusted completely, i guess im a bad judge of character i dunno? im just really crashy and really wanted to die after this happened, with no regrets i would have died... oh well.... i suck i know it... i wish i would have died.... i have new lyrics on my lyrics page.... thats about it i guess.... im just really hurting.... trying to keep my sights on going back to school.... i still just wanna give up and die