I'm so fucking frustrated upset and SO FUCKING TIRED of being an afterthought I mean what's the fucking point? Why am I, like really there's no objective reason for my continues existence. If anything the fact that I'm basically a shut in now kinda proves that point right? Don't get me wrong my mental health has been overall much more stable WFH full time than previously bit ot still proves how unnecessary I am right? I can go days, weeks without encountering another human in person.
Ugh why am I so upset by this I mean it eas probably inevitable right? I mean she should have known it was mine right? I mean when they moved dad made a point of telling me he'd gotten xenon jn the basement of the new house, because it was fucking mine, or was supposed to be. I mean she should have known right? Why else would he keep it and sell Black Stallion? I just it's not like I could have taken it off her hands realistically with me being this far away but goddammit nobody ever thinks they should tell me. They just fucking give my shot away and it's like it btw... and deal. What us it about me that makes that a theme? Moreover I'm also annoyed bec6she also knows how much $ they got from me, and agreed to repay and never did.... so ....
I shouldn't be upset I really shouldn't it's still not like i could do anything but zero courtesy is given. Why is THIS the thing thats making me teary? And fucking thinking of all the shit that coulda shoulda woulda. But that shit would never history has shown me that so I should just know by now right? I just UGHHHHH
I want to break something or scream or just indent even know but this teary-eyed on the verge of crying is not it.....
