So as I said I got all caught up on Supernatural before it ended & I've been rewatching & watching some YouTube videos etc. And I'm still mystified by all the destiel let's call them die hards. I did however watch one video that seemed to be sane and mostly jive with how I view that particular relationship. And I thi k the guy said or I'm paraphrasing is that a relationship doesn't hinge upon sex, you can have deep relationships without that. Now the argument of bi-dean is possible but I'd class dean as more open to than searching for. Meaning if the opportunity presented itself he wouldn't say no under correct circumstances but he wouldn't say go out to the bar to pick up a guy. That's my two cents. And for dean to have reciprocated an I love you too at that moment for me would have been monumentally out of character for a person who swallows and buries any emotion or trauma or anything that could make them feel or be vulnerable. Speaking from personal experience here, not a reply that would come easy; given more time and a beat to collect thoughts gauge the sincerity/trustworthiness of the other person would be necessary and that time didn't exist. And true or not the viewer should know the answer; platonic, romantic or otherwise the answer is still yes.
The fandom arguments about a lot of things are passionate but the ones who feel personally attacked I dont understand. I understand why people were outraged at death being the end, how deans death came so quickly and ordinary. But that's what made it all the more real, all the more true and yes all the more painful. Goddamn though he had a beautiful death.
Now to other things I've just refinished season 12 which contains two of my favorite episode arc/scenes. Regarding Dean the whole bathroom scene & following conversation with Rowena is gut wrenching. More so when you cut the bathroom scene back to just Dean talking to himself. The 2nd being Dean's saving of Mary in her mind. Now THAT scene is heartbreaking when you cut just it together and true on many parallel levels for me personally. I'd encourage cutting them back and viewing them as their own experiences without the other storyline cutting in. So beautiful.
