I don't know its weird... so I spoke with Erica earlier this week, really last weekend but whatever and she's not taking time the first week of July so there is really no reason for me to visit, Ellie's party is 11am saturday which is a day I'd still typically be flying and getting there somewhere between 3&5.. and she's not taking any time off so what am i doing flying saturday and going back sunday? uhh no... moms going to rhians' wedding, which i did momentarily reconsider going to but.. the reason i wasnt going in the first place is the same reason im not going to texas... there is absolutely nothing to do and frankly a weekend trip to MA isnt really i dont know its just wasteful somewhow... so... no summer trips for me this year.... possibly if code8's miami/dallas premieres are rescheduled i'll take the opportunity to go down alone this time...
so we had that convo last weekend about not going n stuff... and this weekend they were going down to port A for the annual weekend/week trip they have... of which i discovered chuckie went down for... now if i knew about it i may have gone i dont know but i wasnt even invited or whatever...
and work... ugh i dont even know anymore... like, i just, i want to i dont even know... thats the problem... and you know everyone hates my personality, love my intelligence but my personality its the dealbreaker every time... i totally get it but i almost dont know why people want to change it... i also dont know why anyone cares... like really
i also want to get rid of all these extra pops so i got a label printer and a postal scale so i can get that ready and i've been stockpiling the boxes from whatever i've had delivered lately... also got a little photo box so i can take pictures and inventory the extra stuff and get them listed... thats not done yet but it will get there ... i hope...
and my lottery winning streak is over, officially... i haven't won in a few weeks and i'm finally hitting into the 500 i won... which its still not losing any money right because its all recycled winnings still but i dont know...
i just, i just want to disappear but thats not the right word, like somehow slowly back away from the stage and into the wings so nobody can see me right... something like that...
just finished black mirror season 5.... that show i do enjoy it... i have something else in my list that somewhere an article described it as batshit crazy but in a good way... which frankly is the best way to describe something so its got me intrigued...
