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The universe just keeps shitting on me

The Sounds of SIlence

I've pretty much sat in silence most of today, my hearing aid is without speaker so I havn't bothered; I dont feel like doing much of anything, though I did manage to truck the laundry down and put a load in... why cant some disease just befall me and kill me like it did Fenway... seriously I"m such a waste

And the hits keep coming

I feel like crap today... I kind of just dont want to do it anymore... I mean I dont know what to do anymore either....

So Dad's closing the store for 'health reasons' ... he's having an ablation Monday so I'm wondering if he's downplayed the afib issue?

Got an email from work today they're changing the benefits provider to Cigna for everything, none of my mental health providers are in network, and Margaret is retiring; have I told you that? Yeah so group is probably ending and since I dont see her in network anymore I'm not sure what its worth...


Garage leak, had been repaired, now dripping.... also I think its the guest toilet, the bowl seems to be losing water now... I fucking hate my life... this means amajor repair likely & since im a fuckup i probably cant use homeowners, not that i deserve to anyway

ALSO (new for Friday) My hearing aid speaker died in the other hearing aid... so lovely

Fenway

I had to say goodbye today... it was so much harder than Piman or Ty... who both gave me months of warning to prepare... not this guy... 💔