Weird... ish?

Its kinda been a weird week... Group is moved to an office down the hall its the new "group room" its got a table and windows.... its not cozy/dark like the old group room.. and dark is better somehow... no group on monday... maybe the table will be gone when group resumes...

Project crazy happened all week culminating in the project getting pushed back, which is good... but also I feel like I'm not contributing... like i'm doing all this 'stuff' but I dont feel like i'm getting anything done...

Garage leak has restarted itself... i think the weather swing is part of the reason... gotta redo the repair if I now plan to be in TX for ellie's chritening.. right? Also I cant help but I've thought several times lately, even though I've been on a plateau of okayness, that checking out before she knows who I am could be better... not that I live there or anything but does that make sense? or is that just me crazy talking? maybe both?

Maybe its the weather being all gloomy and rainy this week but its somewhat funk inducing... really the only things i've looked forward to this week are the DCTV shows.... 2 of the 4 were spectacular this week, Arrow for the last few weeks, really this whole season... which is another thing... I have tickets to heroes & villians in september and i want to go, but its 6 months away, slightly less, and its not the same kind of anticiption i had last year.... I want it to be the same kind of anticipation... i have a few months to figure out how to get there...

Other things from this week, i totally out of character and on a whim got a "diet" supplement... we'll see how that goes... I've been stuck though admittedly I've been lax the past couple months...

Group has been trying to focus on getting social again, which totally makes sense... but its well its nearly impossible... who wants to be friends with a broken human? nobody thats who... even people who i consider my friends I would venture to say wouldnt... i'm just that kind of person.... I even asked about doing dinner or what not and got a single reponse that saturday is a no go.... and no followup... i'm done trying (yes i've said this before and perhaps will try again but its exhausting even though I only do it every now and again) in some respects, still just waiting on the animals to die off... pathetic and true..

Yesterday a picture I'd ordered for charity arrived, with something extra... I smiled, genuinely smiled it was nice, and they didnt have to add it... I'm glad they did

well its been nice getting these thoughts off... i'm going to go note take some flashbacks and get season 1 off the ground to the site...