sigh

So, its looking like July is a no-go.... I had still wanted to go.... I kind of still do, but I'm unlikely to go alone...

Workloads, split focus

So I had a really good conversation with my bosses boss tonight. I have too much on my plate and my focus is too split right now... and I need something dropped. Also i have 29 minutes until I'm relieved of phone duty, no calls in the past 5.5 hours, so I'm betting none in the next 29 minutes either...

Weird Day

Its been a weird day, prior post. And I ultimately ended up going to see Deadpool, excellent movie. However I would have enjoyed it more had the people who brought their 10 year old son to the movie kept him in check. Kicking my seat, jumping up and saying "Its Stan Lee, Look Mom its Stan Lee" and a variety of other outbursts. He's 10, not really an appropriate movie for a 10yo.... in my opinion.

Also I rescued some lady in the parking lot, she was near hysterics about being out of gas and realizing she left her wallet at home and living in grove city so she's not near anyone... more of a miracle was I actually had $5 in cash to give her... so that was good

Did everyone skip manners?

So one of my neighbors just walked by with her dog while I was out with trinity, she says hi, how are you... i said fine... she said good your yard is a mess better clean it up

What THE FUCK, seriously lady? There's a branch in the yard, yeah and I fucking hurt my ankle a couple weeks ago so I've not been very able to do shit.... seriously fuck off, dont say anything.. plus its fucking winter, its not like there's grass...

2 hours later, I'm in a terrible mood and it all started with that bitchy neighbor, granted my weeknd has been crap with the release and the sleep deprivation, and today's mandatory call was changed from 11:30 to 2:30, which frankly irritated me because I had planned on seeing Deadpool when I got up this morning at the 3pm show... well that got screwed up, I mean sure I can see when the next time is but I'm in a bad mood will it make me feel any better? Also I dont want to do any laundry... I'd like a laundry fairy.... did the minimum of grocery shopping, they had one old lady at the deli counter with no numbers and a line, I passed, I'll do it later.... and forgot trinity's treats, aka the bribes she gets at night to give me my bed....

Saturday

So, the release actually has gone pretty smoothly, for the pieces which I was responsible for... no emergency calls, just a bunch of meetings from 2am til 3pm with basically napping between... which amounted to 7hrs of fragmented sleep....

However highlight of the saturday, my Lightsaber Saturday submission got put into the album, yay. So that was cool, and a comment somewhat challenging a variant edit was taken up and submitted for the commenter.... apparently sleep deprivation is good for my creativity...

I decided to not go see Deadpool, because frankly I'm afraid of falling asleep... meeting tomorrow at 11am should be the last, if that goes well I think I'll go tomorrow, fingers crossed...

Atypical

Ok, this is release weekend but I got a really nice email from a coworker...

Setting it up he sent out an email and then asked me if he sounded like an asshole, he didnt. I told him he didnt and besides I run a greater risk of coming off as a bitch in my emails than he does of being an asshole.... this was his reply

Wheewww, that’s good then.  Once they go out, I’ve never had much success getting them back.  Thanks for the input.

Even though you didn’t ask, in my opinion your one of, if not the most, knowledgeable and smartest people I’ve worked with on this project.  So every time I get an email from you I expect to learn something new.  Even if it’s not always good news or something I want to hear.  In a pleasantly clear a frank tone to boot.

Pleasantly unexpected.... now i have to endure wakenness and oncallness for 43 of the next 48 hours, fun times!

Release Week

Or Hell week, whichever is your pleasure... no really though everyone wants everything now now now, and goddamn no... no no no... ridiculous

Ankles feeling better.... actually I took a step Saturday and got a loud pop, after which my ankle actually felt much better... which still makes me wonder if I somehow was walking on it dislocated or out of joint and didnt realize it... I can usually tell when its out of joint and pop it back... nevertheless, feels better gonna continue the brace through the week, hopefully should be good 2 weeks i'm thinking will be okay, if its still wonky i'll do the neoprene support next week been using it for bed, because I'm not wearing the brace to bed...

Nothing too exciting has happened, mostly because all I've done is go to work and home, or WFH several days because after Monday at work, I PAID for that... ouch... so WFH Tue, Thur & Fri... that probably also helped, and didnt leave the house til Sunday when I finally did some grocery shopping since the cupboard was practically bare...

Interacted a bit more online with the Arrowverse, Arrowheads fandom etc etc... its okay... I'll continue... also I'm totally still disappointed with the X-Files... they could have done such a better job... I mean in 6eps it could have been so succinct and complete a story, but nope, its like oh we'll start abandon what we started with and maybe in next weeks finale sew it all up? I do kinda feel sorry for Lauren Ambrose & Robbie Amell, because, like them both but ugh tonight's episode was kinda terrible... where is the 90s X-Files I remember?

Ok I said my peace... g'night

Arrgh

Its only 10am, I'm irritable, my boss is really on my last nerve today and my ankle is still injured... I want a break, i had a break over the weekend but i need one again, its annoying, i'm annoyed... really I'm on a short fuse today.... plus snow so i had to shove my braced ankle into my boot, which doesnt fit very well... its awesome... yup thats my day so far... maybe it'll get better with the 7hours of meetings that start at 11... woo right?

Well... that was... interesting

So that game was interesting... not a particularly good game, I liked the description of peculiar, seems most fitting...

I feel slightly better now than earlier, also I didn't do anything I needed to do, I figured ankle rest would be better, and it's been better. Though I have adjusted my gait to use more knee than ankle.... good thing I'm skilled at the ankle injury walk... but this isn't a sprain, I kind of wonder what it was, but as long as its getting better I'm not complaining...

Also, I need to figure out the people thing.... really....

Low key

I slept til after 10 today, I dont even know when the last time I did that was.. I feel so blah... also my ankle, but its not as bad as the other day, i have no clue what I did.... but as long as its mostly flexed i'm good... new tails on my HA today too, they arent slipping anymore, which is nice... I'm hoping this is temporary, I was kind of liking the not depressed Christine.... I mean she still had some thoughts but it was more up than anything...

Where's the wind?

The wind has totally disappeared from my sails... didn't want to do anything today, and compared to the past month or two its eh... like last weekend i had to do things, i couldn't sit still... not so much today... also I did something to my ankle a couple hours ago, its like pinched or something, little stabby on the decompress on a step, and i cant find my freaking brace... how come when i don't need it i know where it is and the minute i need it its gone...

I had a brief moment of inspiration for the munny i've had and couldn't find it, so got 2 on ebay then promptly found mine.... started well kinda started the project i'd thought of... am i so bleh because i'm not working and i've been working so much and friday was totally not frantic paced?

Ugh, wind gone... :(

Minor Miracles

A minor miracle occurred today, all my meetings after noon got cancelled! It was like my typical day lately was flipped, back to back 8-12 then nothing. I almost didn't know what to do with myself I had so much time. I left ON TIME, promptly came home and took a nap! A nap!

SO, it seems i'm continuing...

It'll slack off eventually, I'm sure of it

Anyway, I think I need people... like live in person people, outside of work people... you know friend people... they're so hard to find, and even harder to make, then you have to put in some degree of trust.. hardest part.... so I contemplate that...

Saw the psychiatrist today for my med refill.... asked me how i was, I said actually not too bad, feeling kinda good the past month or so, he's like interesting, thats opposite... meaning its not seasonally typical, I said well my last really bad spell was like in July a few years ago.... that really had no point did it? nope not at all...

Hey I'm twittering now... just for the show mainly, but its not too terrible, I dunno I still dont think anyone cares what I have to say, but the fandom tie ins are better than twitter in general I think... yup thats it for today, see you next time in Christine's boring life.. the blog...

Superfluous activities

This is a work rant... why the hell would you have me do a prototype/mockup of pages that are freeform, and the responsibility of ANOTHER PROJECT because you dont understand or have not paid attention to anything? Why because its seriously grating my patience that this task is so unnecessary because these things ALREADY EXIST, we arent creating them, we arent responsible for them, all we're doing is delivering a new workflow mechanism to get them approved, thats it. no UI front end anything... gah!

Velcro

So I'm WFH tomorrow since I have a psych appt in the mornin for some refills... I hope the break will be good, I feel slightly discombobulated lately, like I need a mental health day, but not really... I think its more like I need a real break, like something that'll completely take me out and have a mental break... like a break/relax not a break breakdown... maybe its just because I worked over the weekend, even though I did go to the movie on Sunday... and this morning was pretty relaxing, I mean I had one half hour meeting all morning, granted my calendar was back to back to back from 1-5 but hey, that's what you get when 95% of the project team is in California... What did I do all morning that was relaxing? I macrosized a workbook/template for content, because I needed to add two fields and it was hurting me that it was so terrible when it could be so much easier... and I had the time with no meetings and all... so I did that... I really wish though I could work slower sometimes, I mean before I did that I got two tables updated and sheets sent out... like it should take me longer, it doesn't, it should, it takes other people longer....  anyway, that's it... at least I can listen to some music tomorrow... I really kinda do miss headphones, especially when I don't seem to have 8+ hours of meetings on my calendar now... which don't get me wrong is lovely, its just something is missing when its quiet and you're just working.... need some music... I should probably call the audiologist and get my thingie programmed so it'll stream music from my phone, but I don't necessarily want to use my data.. and the laptop at work has bluetooth disabled, since bluetooth is the technology the transmitter thingie uses.... turns the HA's into headphones essentially... basically its a $450 toy I got and haven't really used.. Like I wanted it for the calls, but I gave up because my particular phone apparently doesn't like to play nice... so whatever, but it would probably be nice to use it

ALSO why is the conjunction don't in the spellchecker dictionary, i get the red squiggly with "dont" but I never get the correct option, whats with that?! Had to add it to the dictionary my self... its a common word people, why would it be left out?

oh if you were confused about the title, i couldn't think of one, but the cat is having a grand old time playing with a velcro cord keeper thing... its kind of like when i used to find passwords with whatever junk was around, random selection... ahh back when passwords could be way more common, but still not easy to remember if said object was removed from the room

Captain Obvious declares that it is February

Yup it is.. and we start February on a Monday no less...

Today was fine, group was fine, small crisis with work when I got home a half hour ago, thats resolved, I did realize I have a doctors appointment Wednesday Morning, so thats probably going to end up a WFH day... which isnt bad.... there is about a 10% chance I'll need to go to Carlsbad next week so I'm thinking I'm in the clear for travel, but Tues/Wed will be pacific hours I believe....

So overall not a bad Monday