tired

today has not been a good day... hearing that will got that job over me, i'm so upset.. and i feel bad about being upset because he needs it... but i wanted it... he said he took it because it came first, its not ideal for him but hey... so and ugh...

why? i dont understand, i really dont... i've never actually not gotten a job i wanted and interviewed for... i've not gotten jobs i've been on the fence about but not really wanting but being okay if i didnt get it... this job, i wanted.. i have other feelers out and agencies, but this job and its location was/would have been ideal...

you cant always get what you want right?

You know what else? he said well maybe you were just destined to move down to where your sister is... really not the right thing to say

Time moves so slow

Time is moving excruciatingly slow... and I'm not one for patience.... didnt get the job I interviewed for.... will did though... and i'm upset about that... but glad he did, he needed it more than I... I don't understand... recruiter gave me some BS about not being able to pull the trigger.. but they're interested... why do people lie? because it was obviously a lie since will got an offer and starts the 27th... i bet one of the other 3 people who interviewed got whatever the other position was that was open... i suck :(