i want to be loved, cared for, taken care of... but i cant relinquish any security to try to find that...
then again i'm not so sure that i'm lovable, the kind that anyone would care for or want to take care of anyway... i mean look at me, look at my life, look at my house... why would anyone?
i also want someone to want to help me, but i cant accept any help, it'd make me indebted in a way i'm not sure i could repay...
