kaboom

kick ass wicked thunderstorm now... sweet :)

ugh

i still feel bad about missing my appointment yesterday, and kinda worse about lying about losing power, i didnt lose power but my alarm didnt go off again like it normally does, i dont know why that didnt happen but

and i kinda was looking forward to the drama referal.. i dunno

roar!

i just missed my appt with my shrink! i am sooooooooooooo annoyed, my alarm went off at 7am and i hit snooze and it didnt go off again!! i'm so pissed, i'm off to work now grr!!

when the cats away..

the mice didnt really play, we worked, but thats good... so i had something to write about yesterday and was dead tired from the cookout.. hmmm

anyway saw the pdoc today... tried to get refills, the stupid escript application he uses got locked up, thankfully the pharmacist gave me my pill for tonight, it should get in by tomorrow so i can get my refill plus i get paid tomorrow so i'll have money once again..

got another project, but it seems odd, i'm going to chat with my manager about it, just seems to me we're going backward somehow and we shouldnt.. ya know?

also i want to somehow approach the subject of getting a f/t position but i'm not sure how... so maybe that'll be my topic for saturday, which my appt is at the crack of dawn (for a saturday) at 9am... sheesh

ok so i agreed to that but still 9am on a saturday and i'm not working?? :)

ok thats it i'm going to start rambling if i continue..

what happens...

what happens if i get comfortable with the idea of staying here in pittsburgh? i mean i feel more comfortable here now than i ever have before.. but is that a function of me liking my job and people i work with or is it something more... and why does it kind of feel like deserting massachusetts? its weird, like i'm breaking some allegience or something and yes i think i spelled that incorrectly..

oww

okay so , i saw my shrink and maybe i have some personality issues like inflexibility and stubbornness and weird habits...

anyway oww is because i had a blister on my toe and itched it and its now like a burn kinda its veddy sore... and i dont want to band aid it until it scabs now because i band aided it yesterday and its still oozy... and i cannot find my neosporin at all !!

also i'm a few days short on my meds til my appt thursday grr..

heat

too hot to fall asleep so i'm sitting here now with my feet in my foot bath which i've never used before soaking in some cold water.. actually feels quite nice

hot hot hot

its hot as f*ck today... i'm sitting here and im sweating, yet i hold true i am not turning the a/c on until July

and another thing... i think i notice a difference on meds vs off meds... does that mean i am crazy?

its sooo hot i have a fan on high to my left and a fan on the floor to my right both pointed/angled at me and i'm still sweating i need like 2 more fans front and back to not sweat and keep cool damnit, oh and btw i hate sweating its icky

its freaking HOT out

and to be worse tomorrow, muggy too.. ick and I AM NOT turning the a/c on until JULY that is the end of it but damn june needs to not go 90 and humid!

so thunderstorm woke me up this morning at 4am grr

my foot hurts because the window fan fell on it monday, its got a little bruise and a small swell but other than that its fine

my curious eating schedule is amusing to my friends at work... and i suppose it is kinda weird i'm not totally strict about it but i'd much rather follow than not... thus eat breakfast at 7:30 eat lunch at 1 then dinner at 6... dinner is my most flexible... this all came about because i was invited to lunch at noon and frankly thats just odd for me... and at the reaction we negotiated for 12:30 which turned into 12:45 anyway.. and the harassment commenced... now today when i got part of an asian pear, of which i'd never had before, at around 3ish i got the business too.. all in good fun but it really makes me realize my eating habits are crazy and i do kinda need to schedule snacks if i'm going to snack which they thought was totally bizarre but i'll go all day and not eat or whatnot if i dont pay attention to the time, my metabolism is like zero so...

anyway... i was also looking into gyms around here.. there is one right down the street that has a free week and a nutritionist but nothing much else... there's one 20-30mins away thats bigger with a pool and water aerobics but more pricey... i havnt called either yet but i'd rather water aerobics... but i'd only go like 1x/wk so is it work the extra $$ plus its further away..

i'm hot and sweaty sitting here writing this so i'm going to stop its damn hot here today

georgous

yep today was georgous, however it was hot and i'm always lazy when its like that, i wish my hammock was more to my liking, its more like sitting on my deck if i'm in it, granted i'm quite heavy but still... i should bring that over to john's and get myself a lounge chair or something i'd like to tan a bit i think...